Tomorrow morning at 11:15 I will head to my first doctor's appointment of the new year! This year is going to be different. As much as I LOVE Dr. Jaffe and her staff at CRM I am really hoping this will be my last year going there! I am seriously hoping for a big turnaround in the luck department tomorrow, and this year in general.
The purpose of tomorrow's appointment is to scan my ovaries again. Typically, I would do this on the 2nd or 3rd day of my cycle, but because they are looking to see what has changed since last month, I can do it now rather than wait on my cycle to start - which is awesome.
I doubt I will even see my doctor tomorrow, most likely it will just be a quick ultrasound. Ideally, a quick, blank ultrasound :). It would be great to see 2 quiet ovaries, just hanging out, waiting for ovulation. At last month's appointment I wasn't so lucky. She found a large cyst on my left ovary which meant I wasn't allowed to take that months round of medicine. They also wanted me to take birth control to help my body get rid of the cyst...
I was really upset about all of it. I felt like it was another speed bump, slowing me down, and after prayer and talking to Mike, I just decided to let the month go. I didn't take the birth control, I tried my best to put it out of
my mind, and I focused on Christmas and my family. It ended up being very nice. I don't want to waste another month, but my forced break was good for me, for us.
So tomorrow, we will find out if the cyst is gone, or at least small enough to not get in the way of things. If it is, I will be so happy! It will mean we can get back to trying, and I feel like we are getting close! If it isn't, I will probably be mad at myself for not taking the bc pills. I am sure I will cry a little, frustration will set in, but I am going to do my best to remind myself that it's all in His timing. I am just eager to get things moving again.
Please say a little prayer for a stree free ultrasound result tomorrow. I will be praying,
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